Prabodha Samayam

This morning I happened to listen to the three-part talk by Ms. Gayathri Sivaramakrishnan (of the Global Organisation for Divinity India Trust? –  I am not so sure). Pl. do not click on the links if you think you are going to listen to a lecture by H.H Shri. Muralidhara Swamigal on re-birth and karma. The three parts feature the lecture by Ms. Gayathri S.

The first two parts constitute the summary of the book, ‘Many lives, many masters’ by Dr. Brian Weiss. If I am not mistaken, she has spent some time with him. She mentions this in the first lecture. You can find the links to Parts 1 and 2 when you listen to Part 3 (link below).

Part 3 is particularly interesting. The importance of ‘Brahma Muhurtham’ is mesmerising and tantalising. Thomas Alva Edison came up with the Electric bulb during one of his ‘meditations’ in the ‘Hypnogogic’ state. The ‘hypnogogic’ state occurs in that time before sun-rise  (from 4 AM to 6 AM, IST?). She asks us to write down our dreams that occurred during that time.
Nochur Venkatraman told us to do the same thing if we wanted to learn how to discover our true inner consciousness, that lies beyond and above all our outward identities and identifications, in his lecture on Shri. Adi Sankara.
We can memorise the ‘Dakshinamurthy Slokam’ coming in around Minute 10 and 32 sec. in Part 3.
Yath Sakshath Kuruthe
Prabodha Samaye
Swathmanameva Dwayam
Thasmai Sri Guru Murthaye
Nama Idham
Sri Dakshinamurtaye (Slokam by Shri. Adi Sankara)
(Look inward – Swathmanameva Dwayam – in that Brahma Muhurtham – Prabohda Samaye. The ‘Hypnagogic’ state/time).
Apparently, Dr. Bruce Lipton of Cell-Biology of Harvard University has talked of ‘Biology of Beliefs’. In plain English, apparently, our cells can be altered by our beliefs. I found a link to his lecture, I think. I have not listened to it yet.
Parts 1 and 2 are nothing but a summary  of ‘Many lives, many masters’ by Dr. Brian Weiss. He has written a new book, ‘Same Soul, many bodies’ (future progression).
On listening to these lectures, one is able to appreciate how little we know and how much we have moved away in our lives from the kind of life that our Sastras told us to lead and, in the process, how little of our potential that we are able to tap into or realise.
Where, how, when and by what do I begin the process of repair or reversal of the present life/lifestyle?
Can I start by getting up at 3 AM or 4 AM? Then, there is Ekadasi Vratham to observe.
Then, there is Thirukkural, Thiruvasakam, Thirumanthiram, Bhagwad Gita, Kamba Ramayanam to learn.

Accepting vulnerability

Some days ago, my wife sent me this blog post. The following remarks resonated with me rather well:

While life looked great for the most part, I found myself occasionally experiencing sharp anxiety over things that seemed relatively insignificant to others around me. I related to these moments as personal setbacks in my otherwise happy journey of spiritual growth. Of course, being that harsh on myself made it worse.
All the same, with continued reflections, I could begin to see a pattern. I had a strong, an almost innate, sense of aversion – an aversion to pain, loss and to any kind of suffering.
I subconsciously detested multiple things, big and small, including the idea of falling sick, getting into an argumentative discussion, excessive socializing, meeting aggressive people or missing my daily dose of meditation or exercise. I was also averse to making blunders (perhaps minor mistakes that appeared major only to me) and harbored a subliminal fear of potential loss – of losing a loved one, my reputation or my new-found sense of peace.
I certainly could relate to this part of the blog post than the earlier part where he wrote about discovering an inner strength. Perhaps, I did so too in the last two years or I did not. I am not sure of that. But, the above part is something that I had experienced and am still experiencing.
It set me thinking on why it ought to be the case and I came up with the following explanations. Needless to add, the explanations are not mutually exclusive.
(1) Having given up (for the most part) on the pursuit of material goals and acquisitions, one naturally finds inadequately or not at all motivated to pursue certain activities whose ends would have been these. So, some activities and engagements drop out. There is more time. There is a certain incremental idle time in that sense. Hence, other thoughts come in to occupy the idle time. Vulnerabilities and fears get accentuated and get extra attention.
(2) As long as one feels that one is the ‘master of the universe’ or at least the ‘master of one’s personal universe’, one is driven by a sense of (false) belief in one’s abilities to handle things. As that feeling of ‘ego’ shrinks a bit and as becomes aware of one’s vulnerabilities, initially (‘initially’ has no reference to chronological time; chronically, it can last very long and it is, in my case) one feels a greater sense of vulnerability and experiences more fears. Logically, the next step in this process should be total surrender as one comes to terms with and accepts one’s vulnerability. For Yours Truly, it is still a work in progress, to put it positively.
(3) Both the realisation about the relative uselessness of material and other goals and the heightened sense of vulnerability could be due to some common underlying biological change. Who knows?
In a different context, my friend wrote to me that
“The illusory ‘I’  has to be ‘sustained’. otherwise the bubble will burst. But we are afraid of the emptiness. The great say that that emptiness is fullness’
He was responding to this blog post at ‘The Gold Standard’ blog that I maintain. He is right: even the partial realisation of the emptiness is unsettling. I am yet to come to terms with it.
Do you want to share your experiences and progression or tips for progression that helped you overcome this sense of vulnerability or fears?